Just Remembering.....Scattered thoughts

We'd bypass each other almost everyday
Each time she'd give me little smile and say hi
Soon that "hi" transcended to " Uggh what you doing boy?"
And I'd respond "Work, nosy! Go back to your cube...(smile)"
She'd roll her eyes and I'd laugh, and I would think to myself " She's nice person...."

I'd walk past her cube almost everyday
Each time peaking my head over saying " What you doing girl....You not doing no work!"
She'd reply "I have some much work to do!"
I'd say "Yea, Yea" and go on about my daily tasks...
We'd have causal conversations and it was then that I found
Not only was she a good person, but a young single mother of a beautiful 5 year old girl
A soon to be graduating student from Bowie State University....
I'd think to myself " Wow, she is really doing it"
To be a single mother, work, and go to school
I found it very admirable..

Everyone enjoyed working with her
They'd say "She was a nice person"
She was, indeed she was...
But one day she'd announce that she would be taking another position at a new job
Every: "Awww, congrats! We're sad that you are leaving, but wish you the best!"
She'd say oh I'll still keep in touch and come out to happy hours...

We'd part ways.....
Days....Weeks...Months would go by....
I come into work and hear the news..
She what?....No she didn't? .... A fire?...Dead!.....Homocide....Naw, it wasn't her?.....
You all got it wrong!.....I'mma call her and clear this up....
Ring, Ring, Ring...
I'd hear: "You have reached the Mailbox of Calida Williams"
Sorry the Mail Box is FULL...
Then I recieved and e-mail that had a news link from my co-worker
and I clicked on it
Page loads...
And I couldn't believe my eyes
A picture of her holding her daughter
Article title :"Police: Fire Possibly Set To Cover Up Murder"

I'd walk past her almost everyday
Each time we' d converse
Each time I would think:
She's nice, funny, crazy, nosy...
BUT NEVER did I think that she would pass away a month later...

This is crazy
Why do the worst things happen to good people?
I watch the news and all I see is her father grieving as news media interview him...
I could only think of how it feels to lose a child, and how this 5 year girl has to grow up without a mother....

God I trust you have great plan for this
Please comfort those that have been affected by this loss,
and all people that have lost someone....Amen

I guess it's a proven fact that not only is Life a beautiful gift, but it's journey is hard....
It's only when we come realize this fact, that we will learn to fully appreciate the good times and people that we encounter...

My prayers go out to the Williams family and friends....

Rest in Peace
Calida Williams
(3/5/78- 3/5/06)