Hard To Read.

Someone told me the other day that I was hard to read...

I replied, "How so?"

They replied, "I don't know you just are..."

Yea I know, that makes no sense!!

Especially since they couldn't even give me an example of how I was sooo hard to read..

I would normally write it off and and keep it moving

But it really hit me this time, cause this wasn't the first person to tell me that..

So I stepped outside of myself for awhile and tried to see what others my see..

Maybe I would find something that I subconsciously give off that I may actually be oblivious to....

MY CONCLUSION...

In each separate situation I found that the person was expecting a specific type of behavior for a given situation..... and when I didn't act as expected, I became labeled "hard to read"...

It's like a science project... Each experiment has hypothesis, observation, and conclusion.

SO when:

Hypothesis=Observation, then conclusion = Able to be Read

OR when:

Hypothesis not = Observation, then conclusion= HARD TO READ

I find that most people's hypothesis' are based off pure personal/life experience, and they tend to group all people in a particular category.... Most of the time people's hypothesis are correct ...

HOWEVER, there are some select few that can't categorized and usually prove other's hypothesis' false.

NOT to sound arrogant or conceited (I'm really for from it), but I think myself to be among the select few that can't be categorized.

So yea, I'm cool with being hard to read...

I'm not a book though...

I'm just me...

Tooo Soon

Really can't explain the way I feel
All I know is all I want you to be near
I know that its due, but please be patient I'm learning you
and all I want is you too learn me too

So when I say lets take our time
Understand that I'm not offering game
Hopefully in time
How u and I deal will change
It’s too soon to say I "love" u

I can say it too make your heart feel good
But its best that we are both understood
Its important that I'm the same way for you right down the line
And that you see is what I want to shine

There’s so much I want to say
so much I feel inside
I just want it to be right, so lets take our time to hopefully forever...

Afterwhile..

Afterwhile, afterwhile

This too shall past

Afterwhile Scars will heal, you'll love again

It won't hurt you afterwhile

Stuck between if and when

You prayed and tried But still no end

God's purpose soon you'll understand

It won't hurt you afterwhile

Afterwhile, afterwhile

This too shall past Afterwhile

Scars will heal, you'll love again

It won't hurt you afterwhile

So when the pain has come to end

And now your heart is whole again

Help someone who needs to know

That it won't hurt them afterwhile